if only
if only i spent as much time praying as i did talking it over with jordanif only i spent as much time seeking out God as i did thinking about God
if only i spent as much time on my face before God as i do questioning him
if only i had the faith to hear, perhaps i would have the courage to go, the strength to do, the ability to be, and the wisdom to obey
if only
if only i could live without regret
if only i could start to live
if only i could
if only i could
but i can't
it's not even about me
if only this didn't seem to be such circular thinking