Smiling
I have been smiling a whole lot more recently...I'm not quite sure why...but I like it. I have been a whole lot more thankful for life recently, even though life is not everything that I thought it would be. This growing up stuff is painful. But I am learning to dream amidst it all. I am not sure if that is like running away from reality or if that is simply my way of learning how to cope.I was listening (and relating all too well) to my Good Charlotte album once again. And it struck me how very lost they are....how very lost I am, when I choose to be so. I guess the big difference here is that while they are young and hopeless I am young and I know where the hope can be found...I sometimes simply choose to ignore that hope. I wonder what the purpose in all of that is? I know that God has used some of my darkest moments to help me sympathize with others or to help give me some perspective...but I would like to experience a little more joyfulness once in a while.... :-) And so for this current state of smiles and thanksgiving...I am truly excited. I hope that it lasts. I dream of this continuing.
posted by Trisha @ 9:39 PM
