Useless
i am useless. people today say things about how women are so busy, they have so much to do and so much to accomplish. but i look at what God wants women to do and it is rather simple (not easy but simple). but i don't measure up. i cannot do it. women are to....submit (eph 5:22-25 22You wives will submit to your husbands as you do to the Lord. 23For a husband is the head of his wife as Christ is the head of his body, the church; he gave his life to be her Savior. 24As the church submits to Christ, so you wives must submit to your husbands in everything.) frankly i think that women get the easier of these two commands, so I am not complaining. and contrary to popular opinion, i don't think that i have an issue with authority, rather, i see my self consistently unable to whole-heartedly throw myself into any one thing. how then am i going to be able to sacrifice my dreams and ideas in order to fully and devotedly support and submit to someone else's?
be trustworthy and not hinder him (prov 31: 11Her husband can trust her, and she will greatly enrich his life. 12She will not hinder him but help him all her life.) i lie, therefore i am not trustworthy. and i think sometimes that my entire existence is devoted to hindering. i can be so mean and hurtful all for a joke. i can push and push and push just to get a reaction. i can be thoughtless. i can be conceited. i can be self-absorbed. these things do not enrich anybodys life!
be a hard worker (prov 31: 17She is energetic and strong, a hard worker.) i am neither strong nor hardworking
spend money wisely (prov 31:18She watches for bargains; her lights burn late into the night.) clearly i lack good financial planning skills otherwise i would have more than $2.43 in my checking account. and i sleep too much.
helpful/hospitable (prov 31:20She extends a helping hand to the poor and opens her arms to the needy.) too busy, too self-absorbed, too many excuses
well prepared (prov 31:21She has no fear of winter for her household because all of them have warm[2] clothes. 22She quilts her own bedspreads. She dresses like royalty in gowns of finest cloth.) i may do a fine job of convincing people that i have my life pulled together but being prepared is not a strongsuit.
strong, dignified, without fear (prov 31:25She is clothed with strength and dignity, and she laughs with no fear of the future. ) i consistently and constantly worry, i am weak, needy, desperate at times, hardly characteristics of dignity.
kind (prov 31:26When she speaks, her words are wise, and kindness is the rule when she gives instructions.) i can be hurtful, foolish and sharp on a daily basis. i fear that no one would refer to me as kind.
respected (prov 31:28Her children stand and bless her.) my students are quick to leave.
fear of the Lord (prov 31:30Charm is deceptive,) yet i boast in any abilities that i have.
my deeds publicly declare my value. i fall so short. there is more, but this is all i can handle right now.
posted by Trisha @ 11:00 PM
